The confessional

Ok this is the place to get something off your chest that bothers you...so no matter how big or small, let it out and you will feel better..


Ok, my friend just got involved with a girl that I knew maybe 6 years ago from some gigs My band played. He brought her around and she recognized me. so later he asked me If I ever had "been" with her. I said no but actually she was a one night stand and now I feel like I shouldn't have lied but I also didnt want to make her look bad as it was 6 years ago....

NOPE didnt work..now I feel WORSE! lol

lol...deny everythin


damz..I feel like to rant, but aint got nothin to rant about

lol i could say anything? ok....

one of my biggest crushes was online

i lost the only person i ever truly loved and i feel like the government was the one who took her away.

i secretly hate my father and i want to exploit him in any way possible.

i am trying to break up my friend and her bf. but i have a legitimate reason for that. he's 11 years older and a preverted asshole.

ive wanted to kill this one guy from high school for about 5 years now.

i like a lot of girls, but im sumtimes very picky

i wish i knew Honey in real life

i wish i was a better guitar player and firefighter even though ive exceeded all expectations.

im kinda greedy

i hate my body

i sumtimes wish i would die in a fire so my life would end

lol....not much, i know...

DamianHex wrote:

Ok this is the place to get something off your chest that bothers you...so no matter how big or small, let it out and you will feel better..


Ok, my friend just got involved with a girl that I knew maybe 6 years ago from some gigs My band played. He brought her around and she recognized me. so later he asked me If I ever had "been" with her. I said no but actually she was a one night stand and now I feel like I shouldn't have lied but I also didnt want to make her look bad as it was 6 years ago....

NOPE didnt work..now I feel WORSE! lol

hahaha 6 years ago what you worried about, 6years ago, well 6years is some time so hows do you remeber a one night stand with her then i dont know. But it shouldn't really matter unless u have feeling for her but if not just forget an if he asks you just deny, if she says yeh 6 years ago just be like hows the fuck am i ment to remeber 6 years ago common. Should work

KtotheB wrote:

DamianHex wrote:

Ok this is the place to get something off your chest that bothers you...so no matter how big or small, let it out and you will feel better..


Ok, my friend just got involved with a girl that I knew maybe 6 years ago from some gigs My band played. He brought her around and she recognized me. so later he asked me If I ever had "been" with her. I said no but actually she was a one night stand and now I feel like I shouldn't have lied but I also didnt want to make her look bad as it was 6 years ago....

NOPE didnt work..now I feel WORSE! lol

hahaha 6 years ago what you worried about, 6years ago, well 6years is some time so hows do you remeber a one night stand with her then i dont know. But it shouldn't really matter unless u have feeling for her but if not just forget an if he asks you just deny, if she says yeh 6 years ago just be like hows the fuck am i ment to remeber 6 years ago common. Should work

LoL .. must have been good sex..:p

well Actually I DIDN'T remember her at first..she remembered me. Then I recalled where we met and then kinda what happened. I really dont feel bad for the one night stand thing...just for not telling my friend the truth. I figured that he's not the type to want to date a girl who was going around clubs sleeping with musicians several years ago..
she seems to be much more conservative NOW so I figured why bring up past mistakes...?? Wonder If Im right tho..

yeh just 4get man it'll work best choice

It works UNTIL maybe she remembers and it comes up in a convo or something wih his friend..

that is where denial comes in coz you dont remeber

KtotheB wrote:

that is where denial comes in coz you dont remeber

Ya , Ya in the words of shaggy " It Wasn't me..." LOL :P

~It frusterates me to no end that nobody cares to get to know me, my family, my friends, I'm tired of talking and noone caring to listen, Im tired of giving advice for it to be cast aside.. I'm just tired, I'm emotionally, mentally, physically burnt out..

~ I'm mad at Mark(torm) for just not being straight with me..

~I hate that my 25 birthday is coming up, man I'm getting old.. Where is the time going, don't feel i have accomplished much yet with my life..

~ I hate eye drops, but i gotta put them in ..LoL I have cronic dry eye I swear..

hmmm lets take them in order:)

I listen to your advice and hope that I DO get to know you better in time:)

Torm I have no Clue about but I think being straight with ANYONE is always the best way

dry eyes can be helped out by eating LOTS of green vegatables ( sounds like BS I KNOW but its true)

Oh and as far as your Birthday goes..HAPPY BIRTHDAY and you are SO far from old that you need to stop:) I'm older than you by like 6 years and I feel like a kid....hahahaha

wooooop woooooooooop 17 on 26th february lol, 25 u must be crazzy 14-30 is prime time for fun an all sorts of shit .. the more u wait the less likely ur goin to do things like parachutin an base jumpin an swimmin with dolphins an sharks an playin games with penguins an polar bears. Bcoz ur not scared of what will happen to you bcoz ur more adventurus ...


wow i think that is like the most ive ever typed in a long while Probly all a loada crap too lol

lol my time to rant and whine? And crys, when you decide to open up for real, i'm here to listen =).

Anyways...

-I have serious issues regarding myself... I simply don't accept who i am and still expect others to, crazy as that, huh? I'm envy of everyone else, not in a bad way, but my self steem is so low that everyone is always better than me to me. The biggest problem is that ppl actually sense it and exploit it, hurting me.

-The more hurt I get, th more closed i get... It's a vicious circle... Soon, i'll be living in a bubble and I have no one to blame but myself.

- I've been competing with my bf's ex.... she isnot even near... but I had decided I needed to win him over her, but wait a second, havenot I already? he's WITH me! See? i don't even make sense, I'm irrational, unreasonable and utterly sensitive, as I always say, for the few ppl that know me... I'm hard to love. VERY hard, indeed.

-With all that competition and jealousy, I hurt my bf AGAIN. I'll end up losing him for fear of losing him. does it make sense? NOPE, then again it's me.

-I'm terribly worried with my parents... for diff reasons though. My mom wants to leave home and go ard the world, if she doesn't get the job she wants since she was a small child, i think this time her threat will come along with the actual action. And my father... the more he has.... the more miserable he gets...

-All this is taking a tool on my sister that resourted to playing games 24/7 and buying expensive clothes to satisfy her necessities... and also... i'm to blame, i was always an awful sister, my jealousy once again striked.

-regarding my professional future... I'm simply clueless... I can't do anything properly!

-Sry, I needed it all out...

well Cassie I wouldn't do this for anyone else...but in order to answer this rather serious subject properly I'm going to shed the skin of Damian Hex and simply be mark for a moment. I have learned one thing in life...to be happy with who and what you are and not to worry about what you AREN'T nor what you DON'T have. Exploiting the positive and eliminating the negative is the only way to be happy. I'm a guy with average talent at best, not gonna win any beauty contests nor will I ever be very much more than I am right this moment but you know what? I'm HAPPY:) My minimal talents have not stopped me from acheiving a certain degree of success in my chosen feild...my love life never suffered from being just an average guy...I don't wish to be anyone else nor would I get jealous over what others acheive nor have. Each person is an individual and they can only be what they are to the best that they can be. From my perspective you are a sweet. kind, pretty lady who despite what you conceive as "issues" has still managed to turn out rather well and seems to certainly have attracted enough friends to be HONESTLY blessed. Everyone is human..you will have your shortcomings just the same as anyone. As far as things you cannot control...why worry? Its not like you can change them anyway:)

Ty, Mark, but you were never Hex to me anyway lol. I guess i need to be happy with whom I am, I've no other choice, I'm just too damn romantic at times and it has its ups and downs. TY for the sweet, kind and pretty lady, even though that's not what most ppl think of me. TY. I have plenty of issues, yes lol, now regarding the you turned out fine, I'm not so sure LOL.
Apart from the jokes, ty for listening =). You're a great friend.

okay brought a new BMX was 400£ reduced to 200£ but told em i only had 150£ an eventually got it for 150£ lol got it home an my parents had a go at me like wtf i spent my own moneh blah blah blah something about it being close xmas an how am i goin 2 buy present for ppls

I finally just blocked Dinnu, I gave him a second chance, well one chance to many I figure yet I'm the Bitch he states, not in those words but in his actions, nothing is ever his fault..

This is his lovely parting message "I wish you always feel guilt of your all actions... I wish all your friends betray you.", then in another message after I tell him to "Get Over Himself", then he replies with this "But I will miss you crys.... U know crys, I'm thinking of doin' my masters from Ca (Canada).. just to meet you.. .. Really... Don't know why but you are very special to me." Creepy, Freak, Weirdo.. ect.. he's always been creepy thats why I never replied to him, besides I think he's fake anyways ..

It's just really frusterating when ppl don't take responsiblity for there own actions and instead of pointing their finger at someone else..

who is dinnu?

Dinnu was a guy we first encountered on palbyte. He tried to make friends with several of the girls there, Including Crys, but soon started to show stalker-like tendencies. He'd get angry if he was not replied to immediatly, leave Hundreds of odd messages ect..
He would even create phoney accounts if you blocked him so he could continue to speak to you. He went so far as to somehow take over an account of one of crys friends and write things AS that person.
I had a bit of a war with him over there and he eventually left.
He showed up on forums, but after explaining to him that I run the forums and he'd get no second chances..he vanished. I always thought him fake and even have a pretty good Idea who he is..but since I have no PROOF I wont say. At any rate, Blocking him is LONG overdue crys..he's not a well person and If MY thoughts are corret he's not even who he says he is.

Sounds like a real jerk imo =/

I really hate guys!! no offence karl an mark but i truly cannot trust guys anymore.. i thought i learned the first million times some guy just tries to get something and acts like he's all that to get my attention to then take advantage of me. im sick of it.
found out that the guy i -was- with had, several times, been with other girls behind my back.. what an idiot! all my life i have been taken advantage of by guys who wants nothing else than sex. I wonder if there is any decent guy out there that doesnt only want sex but something more.
am i crazy thinking that those guys exist?
i wonder.. damit.. i was so happy today and now im miserable i wish i could dig a hole and live there the rest of my life without stupid f-in assholes trying to get to me.

this post is kind of messy i know but im not thinkin clearly atm..

awww viki, Im really sorry to hear that:( Yes, lots of guys are like that and maybe MOST are at one time or another..but guys DO exist who like or love you for who you ARE..not what they can get from you. Its sometimes hard not to think of everyone the same..but we ARE out there I assure you and TBH there are a lot of girls who act the same way towards guys. They act like they love you but just want to get with you for a night or two.....I dunno WHY folks have to lie or hurt others to get what they want. Its sad..but dont give up...we DO exist lol

Oh, and let me add a personal message from myself to your ex boyfriend....




ARE YOU FU_KING INSANE!!!!!?????